You are responsible for all that you do, all that you don't do, and the consequences thereof.
Friday, May 31, 2013
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Wednesday, May 15, 2013
Who I really am.
I am not who I wanted to be. I am not any of the things I tried to become. No matter how much I make myself care, I cannot override the one desire, the one rule, that governs my behavior.
I can make myself care enough to suffer, but not to act. The only drive that I possess, is a desire to dream. My interest in reality extends only as far as it can inspire new ideas and dreams. I am unable to spend significant effort on anything that does not directly fuel my dreams. I spent my whole life trying to be someone who works hard, and earns their place in life. I spent my whole life failing. I finally understand why, and it leaves me right back where I started: Hopeless, useless, pointless. An existence without value. Even my care for others merely acts as a restraint, to prevent me from deliberately harming others. It cannot motivate me, except when action takes no effort, making it seem fake.
I can make myself care enough to suffer, but not to act. The only drive that I possess, is a desire to dream. My interest in reality extends only as far as it can inspire new ideas and dreams. I am unable to spend significant effort on anything that does not directly fuel my dreams. I spent my whole life trying to be someone who works hard, and earns their place in life. I spent my whole life failing. I finally understand why, and it leaves me right back where I started: Hopeless, useless, pointless. An existence without value. Even my care for others merely acts as a restraint, to prevent me from deliberately harming others. It cannot motivate me, except when action takes no effort, making it seem fake.
Tuesday, May 14, 2013
Me
I do not understand why people struggle so hard to live. What makes it worth the effort, and pain? Why is it so important? What drives them? And why do they insist that I must want to live too? Why is life so important to people? I doubt I will ever understand.
Sunday, May 12, 2013
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